What a ridiculous statement you might say: "I dread Sundays" but the reason behind this feeling is that throughout Sunday I'm thinking that tomorrow is Monday which of course is a work day!
I really need to get out of this way of thinking. I work full-time plus some, often working evenings and weekends so really should be enjoying this 'day of rest'. Saturday is usually spent recovering from my week of work (or working) and doing those demanding household chores that never disappear entirely. Then along comes Sunday and instead of enjoying the rest I worry so much about the day being (a) too short (yes, I'm pretty certain that Sundays are shorter than any other day) and (b) the day before Monday and my return to work that I seem to get nothing achieved.
It's kind of a 'Catch 22' situation - because I'm thinking about work the following day I tend to end up working then I don't need to worry about it as I'm already doing it!!!!!! How crazy is that???!!!
So, in line with yesterday's post (Cleansing) I need to put my life in order, working Monday-Friday daytime only leaving evenings and weekends to rest and play! This won't always be the pattern since my job often means that I have to work antisocial hours. I'm going to make a note in future of the hours I work and make sure to take 'time off in lieu' where applicable.
I've been working so much lately during my 'free time' as I want to be seen as efficient and indispensable. But I think I have finally accepted what a very dear friend of mine has told me, that most colleagues will think I do all this work when I'm in the office. By not being at everyone's beck and call at all times means that they will see that time in the office along cannot possibly achieve everything I've been doing. There are no magic elves and fairies busy during the night updating the website (alas), creating promotional material, writing press releases etc etc - it's me and me alone.
Life is so short and I'm at an age (NOT to be discussed!) where I question the validity of what I'm doing. There definitely is more to life than work and whilst this provides an income to pay for a roof over my head, bills to keep that 'roof' cosy and stop bailiffs from putting their size 90s in the door, food to keep me fuelled and alive plus clothing to prevent me from being arrested (debatable!) and the odd little luxury there's so much more that's important.
Life, like my possessions, needs to be compartmentalised. Work is in one, albeit very large, section, then there are so many other areas which I need to prioritise.
I'm beginning to wonder if I'm going to have any time to work!
I wonder ... if there was a bank holiday every Monday then Sundays would be total relaxation. Add Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday AND Friday to that list of national holidays I'd really be a very happy bunny.
Hmmmmm ... food for thought. But for now I need to think about the day itself on Sunday. And during the week I can think about how soon Friday will come round - isn't psychology fascinating?
Here's to many more Sundays and my enjoyment of them!
I really need to get out of this way of thinking. I work full-time plus some, often working evenings and weekends so really should be enjoying this 'day of rest'. Saturday is usually spent recovering from my week of work (or working) and doing those demanding household chores that never disappear entirely. Then along comes Sunday and instead of enjoying the rest I worry so much about the day being (a) too short (yes, I'm pretty certain that Sundays are shorter than any other day) and (b) the day before Monday and my return to work that I seem to get nothing achieved.
It's kind of a 'Catch 22' situation - because I'm thinking about work the following day I tend to end up working then I don't need to worry about it as I'm already doing it!!!!!! How crazy is that???!!!
So, in line with yesterday's post (Cleansing) I need to put my life in order, working Monday-Friday daytime only leaving evenings and weekends to rest and play! This won't always be the pattern since my job often means that I have to work antisocial hours. I'm going to make a note in future of the hours I work and make sure to take 'time off in lieu' where applicable.
I've been working so much lately during my 'free time' as I want to be seen as efficient and indispensable. But I think I have finally accepted what a very dear friend of mine has told me, that most colleagues will think I do all this work when I'm in the office. By not being at everyone's beck and call at all times means that they will see that time in the office along cannot possibly achieve everything I've been doing. There are no magic elves and fairies busy during the night updating the website (alas), creating promotional material, writing press releases etc etc - it's me and me alone.
Life is so short and I'm at an age (NOT to be discussed!) where I question the validity of what I'm doing. There definitely is more to life than work and whilst this provides an income to pay for a roof over my head, bills to keep that 'roof' cosy and stop bailiffs from putting their size 90s in the door, food to keep me fuelled and alive plus clothing to prevent me from being arrested (debatable!) and the odd little luxury there's so much more that's important.
Life, like my possessions, needs to be compartmentalised. Work is in one, albeit very large, section, then there are so many other areas which I need to prioritise.
I'm beginning to wonder if I'm going to have any time to work!
I wonder ... if there was a bank holiday every Monday then Sundays would be total relaxation. Add Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday AND Friday to that list of national holidays I'd really be a very happy bunny.
Hmmmmm ... food for thought. But for now I need to think about the day itself on Sunday. And during the week I can think about how soon Friday will come round - isn't psychology fascinating?
Here's to many more Sundays and my enjoyment of them!
I hope that you've been able to achieve this - or something closer to it - since you wrote this. You do work far too hard - and too much - and as for ruining your Sundays by thinking of your Mondays, might I gently remind you, my very dear friend, that you are in control of your thoughts?
ReplyDeleteYou get to decide which ones you have and which ones you don't. Yes, I know it's hard - but so what?! "Hard" is not "impossible"! It just takes some practice. Keep shoving aside those nuisance thoughts, and allow yourself to replace the with happy thoughts of Sunday.
You raise the issue of Sundays being the shortest days... well, yes, they will be, if you are not practicing mindfulness. It is the art of paying attention to NOW, to this moment, every single detail of this moment, and nothing else, noticing everything that's going on around you, inside you, that you are doing, seeing, hearing, sensing - not allowing yourself to think about five minutes ago or two days from now or ANY other moment besides the one you're standing in.
When your mind is on other moments, past or future, you don't notice the ones you're in. You're wasting them, and at the end of the day you look back and say, where did the day go? It slid past you because you weren't paying it any attention.
Train your brain to stay in NOW, especially on Sundays. They will go much slower and be a lot more enjoyable. Guaranteed. Lots of love to you xoxox